ghost of the something’s past
while having an affair with my bed on sunday [i was sick :(], i realized that it has been eight years.
to those who know me, more or less alam na nila kung anong ibig kong sabihin [with matching kutos pa yan]. to those who don’t, wag kayong mag-alala, hindi kawalan kung ano man ang sinasabi ko.
whoever said that moving on is just a walk in the park eh malamang nakapag-move on ng bonggang bongga! and i’m not just talking about relationships ha.
to physically move on from an old place to a new one isn’t that easy. ang mag-move on from losing a loved one, mahirap din. to move from something that’s beyond your character, hindi rin madili.
obviously, it’s taking me a while to move on. hello, nabilang ko nga kung ilang taon na eh. may days na every minute detail naaalala ko, but there are more days when everything seems vague already.
could it be that i have indeed moved on but i just refuse to accept it? or maybe naghihintay ako kapalit na pangyayari or something, para lang matakpan ang mga alaala ng kahapon? [naks!]
sa bagay, maaari. kasi katulad ngayon–i’m trying to ‘move on’ from certain situations because, well, it just can’t happen. pero medyo mahirap gawin kasi walang ibang umaaliw sa karakter ko, whether tao man o mga pangyayari. sabi nga ng kaibigan kong bading, kalerkey!
i suppose it’s okay to look back at the past–not so much as to dwell on it–but more on learning from it. besides, naniniwala ako na your past makes up a chunk of what you are at present, and what you can be in the future.
or better yet, just make new memories right?
hay goodluck tiny, goodluck.
